In the beginning…there was A Very Marcilicious Blog…


Here I am, trying to be contemplative about this blog post on my lunch break.

It’s Day 3 of Zero to Hero.  And before you start thinking “SLACKER!  It’s only the third day and she missed Day 2!”, you can just stop right there because I did Day 2, it just wasn’t a regular blog post.  The assignment for Day 2 was to edit my blog title, tagline, and add a widget that gives a short explanation about my blog, which I did, and you should pay more attention next time.  That’s one of the things about this Zero to Hero thing; it’s not just about writing a post every day, there are other blog-related assignments in addition to writing.  However, today is not one of those days.  Today, I write (on my lunch break, of course).

Today’s assignment is to write about what was on my mind when I first decided to blog.  A bit of history first, though; Fuzzy Undertones is the reincarnation of A Very Marcilicious Blog, which I started way back in July 2005.  At the time, I was recently out of graduate school and mostly living on my mom’s couch trying to piece bits of my brain back together.  I had a part-time job at the San Diego Wild Animal Park as a tour guide for their overnight camping program (best job ever, by the way, maybe I’ll blog about it some day).  Since I have a record that captures why I was thinking about starting a blog at the time, here’s a little quote for you from my very first blog post, dated July 8, 2005:

I’ve decided to start this blog because it might encourage me to do something so that I have something to post on my blog. Who knows if this cutting-edge experimental technique will work, and I can’t promise that I’ll update this blog very often, so you’ll just have to hold your breath and keep your pants on.

And what a grand idea, in a circular-logic kind of way!  My reason for reviving this blog is pretty much the same – I want to draw more meaning from the events in my life, my thoughts, my actions, and the world that surrounds us.  I’m a natural-born observer, but I find myself all-too-often glossing over daily life.  In fact, when I was a kid (like, under ten years old), I distinctly recall thinking “why do the grown-ups walk around looking like they’re asleep?  Where are the smiles and the emotions?  I don’t ever want to be like that”.  But unfortunately, I’ve caught myself falling asleep as an adult.  Writing might just help me stay awake.  And if you have any other pro-tips for staying awake in life, I’d love to hear about them!

But back to Day 3.  I’m supposed to write the post I wanted to write when I envisioned myself with a blog (or reviving my old blog).  I’m not sure I’m doing that now, although this post contains elements of that post – I’m trying to be honest, incorporate memories, and reflect.  Maybe it is even humorous (well, at least I think I’m funny, sometimes).  There will be other opportunities for me to write about specific things, but for today, a couple of somewhat cohesive thoughts will have to do.

And just so you know, Day 4 is a blogging community exercise.  But I just might write a post anyway, especially for you!


Fresh-Squeezed Blogging

I started A Very Marcilicious Blog back in 2005.  I can’t remember why, exactly, I started it, only that I really loved writing and humor, and wanted to connect with the world in some bigger way than I was at that time.  My blog posts started with funny clip art pictures or brief thoughts on whatever topic passed through my mind.  It then evolved into more of a “what I’m up to” blog, then a travel blog, and then a blog that I always had to catch up on, and then an overwhelming blog that just seemed unmanageable to deal with.  Sad to say, it had turned into something that I looked at as a chore, and that I did largely to update a few family members and friends that I didn’t talk to regularly about my latest whereabouts.  It was toned down, bland, and uninspired.  I quit writing for a few months.  I took some time off.

Enter 2014!  I decided to revive A Very Marcilicious Blog, which I’ve renamed Fuzzy Undertones.  I switched from Blogger to WordPress to breathe some fresh air into my blog’s appearance.  I thought long and hard about what I wanted to write.  I may not have everything fleshed out right now, but I know that I want to write more creatively.  I do a lot of technical writing at work and it has been crushing my creative side.  But it’s not dead yet, as evidenced by this blog’s re-emergence into the web-o-sphere!  I will post pictures, random thoughts, irreverent rants, updates on my adventures, and everything you wanted to know (or not) about my cats.

I realize that blogging (and most social media) is all about narcissism…so much of it is about the writer.  Honestly, why should anyone else care what one person (like me) has to say about anything?  Why not just have a personal journal as opposed to a web-published diary of sorts?  I think part of it, for me at least, is that I’m having trouble owning my ideas and thoughts as being valuable – and I don’t want my brain to settle for apathy.  That scares the shit out of me.  So to connect with other people who might have similar thoughts and ideas, or at least appreciate them, is almost a way of validation.  It shouldn’t matter what other people think of me, and it doesn’t.  I guess I’m just scared of not being thought of at all.  And bonus – having a blog is like being given a little bite of low-cal immortality.  Taste it once and you’ll want more.

I just started doing this “Zero to Hero” blogging thing, which is a 30 day process to better blogging.  I hope you’ll understand (and maybe appreciate?) this little (albeit self-centered) journey I’m about to embark on – to be a better writer, a more creative thinker, and more of a participant in our human community.  Maybe you’ll start or refresh your own blog, yes?  If you do, let me know where you live online – I’ll follow you with all my support! ❤